She recently described herself as “finally free” as she came out as gay after hiding it for over 30 years.
And Dame Kelly Holmes, 52, will open up even more in her brand new documentary, Kelly Holmes: Being Me, which airs on ITV this Sunday.
The documentary focuses on the emotional journey she’s taken over the past three decades as she hid her sexuality — and its impact on her mental health.
New Show: First Look At Kelly Holmes: Being Me – The New Documentary Shows The Olympic Champion Reveals Her Mental Health Issues
At first glance, the Olympic champion seems to like to talk as she gets personal, sitting at a table meeting loved ones.
Another scene shows Dame Kelly in a room decorated with her winning newspaper articles, medals and successes – standing solemnly in front of the collection.
The one-off documentary aims to introduce those closest to the runner and see her discuss personal topics she’s never talked about publicly.
Tough: A scene shows Kelly in a room decorated with her winning newspaper articles, medals and successes – as she stands solemnly in front of the collection
Opening: The one-off documentary aims to introduce those closest to the runner and see her discuss personal topics she’s never talked about publicly
Dame Kelly wrote about the documentary on Instagram: “The documentary has taught me so much about generational and social progress when it comes to the LGBTQ+ world.
“I’m hardly aware and ignorant about everything, but I hope one day to be an authoritative voice and also my doc it helps a lot of people at all levels,” she continued.
While she also shared: “It’s an emotional journey, I’m sure many people will resonate with different parts of my story.
Emotional: She described the documentary as “an emotional journey,” as those closest to her helped along the way
Fear, grief, sports, military, mental health, family and the need for freedom to live their lives. I’ve cried, smiled, laughed and cried and I’m sure you will too!
“Please, look this is what tells the story of why I couldn’t be myself, but how strong we all really are as humans.”
In a new clip from the documentary, the Olympian admits she “lost the plot” when her mother Pam Norman died in 2017, adding that her mother would be “so proud” to finally speak out about her sexuality.
Candid: In a new clip from the documentary, the Olympian admits she “lost the plot” when her mother Pam Norman died in 2017, adding that her mother would be “so proud” that she is finally speaking out about her sexuality
Strong bond: Dame Kelly shared emotional memories of her late mother Pam Norman in new documentary (pictured together in 2005)
Dame Kelly had come out to her mother and explained that ‘she wanted me to always be myself. And I just couldn’t. It swallows my life all the time, that worry and fear, it’s been there since I was a kid.’
The star appeared on This Morning on Monday and took part in her first TV interview since coming out the following day.
When she collapsed on live TV, she tragically admitted that she “didn’t feel like she had ever been happy,” but that she is now able to live her life authentically after years of hiding her sexuality in fear.
Social Media: Speaking about the documentary on Instagram, Dame Kelly wrote: ‘The documentary taught me so much about generational and social progress when it comes to the LGBTQ+ world’
Journey: It’s an emotional journey, I’m sure many people will resonate with different parts of my story,” she wrote
“The documentary was a way of articulating the fear I’ve had for so many years and giving me a platform to hopefully educate and educate people about the complexities of maybe being gay too. I’ve never said that before — that I’m a gay woman — in public on TV,” she explained.
Continued: “People don’t realize how hard it is to say that word. I’m not ashamed and I’ve been doing that since I was 18, but it’s very hard when you capture different parts of your life that you had to keep inside.’
Host Holly explained that part of the reason Dame Kelly kept her sexuality a secret was because she served in the military and until 2000 it was illegal to be gay in the military.
‘I’ve never been happy, but now I can’: The star appeared on This Morning on Monday – taking part in her first TV interview since coming out the following day
Dame Kelly revealed: ‘You’ve read the rules of homosexuality in the military – that it was illegal to be gay – and yet you can’t change who you are. So I grew up with that fear in my head, because I absolutely loved being a soldier in the military. It was something I really wanted to do.
‘I was there for almost 10 years and yet I couldn’t express it. It was really difficult, because there was an interrogation. In the documentary I explain a lot and talk to people who have experienced shocking things, but for me personally having raids was scary, humiliating, embarrassing.’
Kelly Holmes: Being Me airs Sundays at 22:20 on ITV.
Must watch: she spoke on the daytime program to promote her documentary